I dreamt again,
About having a baby.
You have left for 5 years now,
And little Natasha is 4.
She also dreamt about having
Ben lives with us,
He loves Natasha just as you would’ve.
The day you walked out in that military uniform,
I wished to tell you,
You’re not leaving me alone,
But with someone,
that is partly you and partly me.
I dreamt of having you as my child.
Ben and I haven’t planned yet.
But I hope if it’s true,
If I’m really pregnant.
I hope this soul in my womb is yours.
I hope Natasha can see her father in the eyes of her little brother.
Jay, I miss you.
The day they came with the coffin.
Natasha was 6 months fetus.
I dreamt of having you as my baby again.
I dreamt of holding you near to me,
Not as a wife but maybe as a mother.